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Home at long last!

I'm back. After nine crazy days and ten nights (most of them endless!!), I'm back home.
When I was admitted in Hospital It would have been for a few days, ordinary exams and texts ..nothing unusual , nothing to worry about...
Then, after two days, right in the middle of an ECG, my heart simply stopped : cardiopulmonary arrest.
I don't rememeber anything about those moments...no pain..no warning...just felt a chill in my chest and lights went out. Darkness.

I woke up after a few hours feeling a painful weight on my chest as if someone had hammered it with their fists (because of cardiac massage) .

I think I'm not fully aware of what happened, it's all like a dream, as if it had happened to someone else , I'm feeling so confused and disoriented right now...

Doctors keep telling me it's absolutely normal, a natural reaction to a physical shock....truth is I'm totally numb , I'm in a dark cage and I can't see any way out...

It'll pass....everything will pass...always...I need a little time...

What I certainly know is that I missed you all..so so much and I'm relieved to be back ..with you.

Love you all!

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mooms
Sep. 18th, 2008 09:27 pm (UTC)
Missed you too!*Hugs*

What happened to you is so scary! Thiinking about you!
anthos65
Sep. 18th, 2008 09:36 pm (UTC)
I love you, baby! You're so sweet and tender! Thanks for caring about me!

*Hugs you tight*
Anto
slashfairy
Sep. 19th, 2008 01:18 am (UTC)
*loves*

i wish i could be your nurse. *holds*
(Anonymous)
Sep. 20th, 2008 04:32 pm (UTC)
♥ very glad you're home.
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